I’ve been committed, this year, to facing daily battles and living more from the heart. Now, what does that even mean? My disgruntled and analytical brain needed to know what that mumbo jumbo sentence even meant to me as a devotee, as a person before I could even begin to admit that I liked that affirmation as soon as I heard it. With japa, with kirtan, with service, I’ve been trying to go inward. To shut out the world and take a journey closer to Krishna and really take the time to associate with Him in those wonderful moments when we are granted an audience with that most wonderful Supreme Person.
I am seated in everyone’s heart, and from Me come remembrance, knowledge and forgetfulness. By all the Vedas, I am to be known. Indeed, I am the compiler of Vedānta, and I am the knower of the Vedas.
—Bhagavad Gita 15:15
Krishna himself gives the plot coordinates for where we can find him when we need him. We need look no further than our own hearts when we are in moments of despair and worry, grief, sorrow and even happiness. All we have to do is turn our faces to him to always have the perfect answer. I have said this prayer as a mantra for countless things; aiding me in finding a lost item, aiding me in exams, aiding me in finding the right words before I speak, confront, or even blog. But, finally it seemed as though this one verse held a code to live by. To take at least a half hour everyday and really journey deeply into the heart. Not to ask for any particular thing, but to have association with my Dearest Friend. To really lay my progress before Him and share my life with HIm in an active way.
So Living from the Heart clicked with me. It was what I wanted to do more of. Of course, whenever we say anything like that, it seems as though Maya, who is appointed specifically to make sure that her Dear Lord’s time isn’t wasted, immediately knows how to counter our attempts. But lately, I’ve felt that just as she is working for Krishna, she is also working for the devotees. I used to be angry when obstacles and blocks would arise, I would fret and fume and wonder why advancement had to be so difficult. Why is it that the waters could not simply stay calm? Why must we always be tossed and turned on the waves of uncertainty and caught under by the huge tidal wave of life? What was the purpose of it all? How is a person supposed to live from the heart with all of that going on?!
Like Dory said in ‘Finding Nemo’ “Just keep swimming.” the answer was simple. We keep going. If Krishna means as much to me as I say he does, then my only option ever was to simply keep going. Continue chanting, continue serving. No matter what. Nothing will ever change the fact that Krishna is seated within my heart. He has said this himself and I can take that as the north star. The constant in the wilderness. And as for everything else that comes up, if I can continue to have faith suddenly, those obstacles become opportunities to grow. Not because of something that I’ve done, but because Krishna has my best interest at heart, and He will pick me up far above those obstacles, if I only remember that He is both the ends and the means.
Living from the heart, with love, with dependance on Krishna is not a byproduct of my life, but the central factor and pre-requisite for anything else that I can do. Seeing all conflicts as another opportunity to give love in some way, even if at a healthy distance, doesn’t diminish who I am. It does crazy things to my ego which always wants to get even and jump ahead, but to my real self, living from the heart only does good things.
In this endeavor there is no loss or diminution, and a little advancement on this path can protect one from the most dangerous type of fear.
—Bhagavad Gita 2:40
When all my actions come from that place that Krishna has decided to make His residence, there is never any loss. No matter what my ego thinks, no matter what my finances say. Krishna has unlimited potencies and He is full of all opulences. If I have the faith and determination that everything He does is working in my best interest then that alone, gives me the highest result: the key love which is trust and faith in Krishna.
I am ready to trust and have faith in my relationship with Krishna.
What do you say?